Phase: A distinct period or stage in a process of change or forming part of something's development
I was supposed to call it an incident, but phase sounded more apt. It was since yesterday that I was confused with what music to put in my playlist, when recently I'd been rehashing a certain feel-good string of songs. The psychology was simple, perhaps I was just not that feeling good?
Good: of high quality; of somewhat high but not excellent quality; correct or proper
Which is it? I was not feeling bad, I was not feeling sorry. But of somewhat high but not excellent quality- of emotion. Not correct or proper either. I was filled with a feeling of inquisitiveness. A perplexed, um, phase. That period or stage in a process of change.
Change: to become different; to become something else
I had noticed a change that I was in denial of not too long ago. And it was a change that, if unentertained, could go away. Or, I could go away, although it was not that easy. This- change- needed resuscitation that only professionals could handle. I needed to be professional.
Professional: relating to a job that requires special education, training, or skill
In this regard, I needed skill. Or, what my father would say, although not in this context, abilidad (ability). What brought this parade of thoughts about was ultimately the playlist. I could not decide if I wanted to dance, bob my head, mope, or think. I often played music in the background because the house was quiet and it killed me. And because of my busy life I rarely had time to stop and listen, like, really listen. But see, I was ejected from that "comfort", if it had to be called that. I was not pushed, but pulled into a haze that lulled all other sense of comfort. I was no longer in the comfort zone.
Ah that's it. I'm no longer in the comfort zone, hence the not-feeling-good vibes phase, leading to change. This change though, is it all for the better? Or for the worse? I am the type of person who doesn't like change too often. But if it happens, I lead more with the heart than with the mind. I am impulsive like that.
Now that I'm getting older, I need to think things through. Like a pro. Except that thinking too much can lead to more curious playlists.